Dream Killers: Confessions of a Writer II

Dream Killers: Confessions of a Writer II

the_hyenas_by_mareishon-d1vv3y7_zps85fb92d3I try to remember that dreams are not concoctions of our own volition. Dreams are God-given, which explains why as children we often had these wonderfully wild hopes and ideas that seemed to come from some obscure place. It is actually the simplest and purest part of us, which holds all that matters in life. It is that God place.

As we grow older, the dream killers grow too, noxious weeds, chocking the life out of these pure aspirations. Yet they only work when we allow them room. Remember your dream is in you.

Just like we protect our bodies from the elements we must also protect our dreams from these sneaky killers. I’ve had so many. Yet, I will categorize the few that seem to be the most aggressive:

Jealousy:  This is a painful one. This killer moves on you slowly like the first pangs of child birth (sorry guys) and escalates with such fierceness we become blinded by its intensity. We stop making sound decisions…

Wait a minute.

I’m not talking about those who are jealous of us. I’m speaking of our own longing for the stuff of others. Jealous is based on our insecurities and rooted in fear. Fear that we will never get what is due to us. For years I watched as others around me seemed to soar and embrace their passions and live their dreams. Some were much younger, some, I thought, didn’t even deserve it. Yep, as if this was my call.

What I failed to see was that through the years, I’d made some bad choices, used poor judgment, but not only that, it just wasn’t my time. I wasn’t ready. It is only as I look back on it now that I realize these truths. But jealous will try to drown out truth and kill off your dreams like a heart attack; that’s what happens to your heart when you’re running trying to keep up with someone else.  Not to sound cliché (which is also a cliché) you can only be your best, not someone else’s.

Keeping friends we’ve outgrown:  Often we have a hard time letting go of those that begin to poison or clutter our path. And sometimes it’s not that they say negative things outright, but they are unenthusiastic at best, and apathetic, at worst. Yep, I’ve had them–friends, boyfriends, coworkers. They just don’t get it. They nod, become bored or even humored by this kind of talk that doesn’t line up with their life’s mantra. They have not changed their way of thinking very much, in all the years you’ve known them.

People who believe that all they see is all there is:  These are the faithless folks. They tell you that writing fiction, or what ever it is you dream is way too much work. Not even worth it because it may not even work out.  Or, People would kill to have a good job like you have!  What is really the problem? They only believe what they can see.

The bible says the enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy. I believe it.I know it.

Well, I’m off…Dream killers have been spotted.